Only Ever You by Siobhan Davis
Only Ever You
by Siobhan Davis
Genre: Contemporary New Adult Rockstar Romance
He’s the hot-as-sin rocker hiding a secret that would devastate his fans. She’s the only girl he’s ever loved, but keeping her safe means he had to walk away…
My entire life is a lie, propelled by one wrong decision that altered my fate.
If fans knew the truth, they’d run away screaming. But all they see is Ryder Stone, moody guitarist and lead singer of Torment, and a potential notch on their bedpost.
Only two people know who I really am. My manager has a vested interest in keeping my secret, and the girl I was forced to leave behind doesn’t even know the true extent of my shame.
Losing Zeta is both my biggest regret and my proudest moment. But she was the glue keeping me together, and I’m struggling to survive without her. Especially when the demons from my past continue to haunt me and the threat of disclosure is ever present.
When she reappears in my life, this time, I’m too weak to push her away.
Her love has the power to save me.
Mine has the power to destroy her.
I’ve worked hard to forget my past. To rise above my messed-up childhood and make something of myself; however, there’s no forgetting him.
Ryder’s gorgeous face and drool-worthy body are plastered over tabloids and TV screens, reminding me I’m still in love with the boy who captured my heart in juvie.
When he failed me, I thought I’d never again experience such heart-crushing pain. But watching him fall out of clubs with a succession of different girls renews the agony, resurrecting countless unanswered questions.
Now my boss has sent me to interview him. It’s a massive scoop for the magazine, and turning it down would kill my career. So, I delude myself into thinking I can handle this.
Perhaps this is the closure I need to finally move on.
Except I’m terrified nothing has changed and one look into those soulful eyes will suck me in again.
Ryder almost destroyed me last time. This time, he could ruin me forever.
His chest inflates and deflates, and his jaw flexes, as he stares out at the ocean. Ryder and I were always comfortable with silence, and I know he’ll talk when he’s ready, so I patiently wait him out.
“It feels wrong,” he says in a low tone a few minutes later.
Pain is etched across his face, and I just want to erase it. I thread my fingers through his and he clasps my hand firmly. “You were only a kid, it was an accident, and you weren’t the only one involved.”
“None of that matters though.” He turns to me with tears in his eyes. “I still relive it all the time, and the guilt never goes away. I don’t think it ever will.”
My eyes search his and I can’t bear to see him hurting, so I fling my arms around him, without any hesitation, holding him tight.
Friends hug friends, right?
He leans his head on my shoulder, and I wrap my arms tighter around him. “Somedays, I think all the guilt I’m carrying will eat me alive. Somedays, it’s a struggle to get up out of bed. After I lost you, music became my only salvation. I honestly don’t know if I’d still be here if I wasn’t a musician.”
“Don’t say that.” I hug him closer. “I can’t bear to think of a world without you in it.”
“I can say the same of you, and I don’t ever want you to leave, Zeta, but I’m a selfish prick like that.”
USA Today bestselling author Siobhan Davis writes emotionally intense young adult and new adult fiction with swoon-worthy romance, complex characters, and tons of unexpected plot twists and turns that will have you flipping the pages beyond bedtime! She is the author of the international bestselling True Calling, Saven, and Kennedy Boys series.
Siobhan's family will tell you she's a little bit obsessive when it comes to reading and writing, and they aren't wrong. She can rarely be found without her trusty Kindle, a paperback book, or her laptop somewhere close at hand.
Prior to becoming a full-time writer, Siobhan forged a successful corporate career in human resource management.
She resides in the Garden County of Ireland with her husband and two sons.
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This was an emotional read for me. I read the trigger warning at the beginning of the book and wondered what I had got myself into by agreeing to read and review this book. I can honestly tell you that I am glad that I was able to make my way through the story without too many issues of PTSD. The book touches on a quite a few tough subjects, which can be triggers for others. Despite my getting through the book relatively unscathed, one should heed the caution if the find certain subject matters upsetting.
As for the story itself, it is the story of Ryder and Zeta. The book covers their individual stories as well as their love story. They each have their demons that they are battling which causes conflict in their relationship. Those same demons also bring them closer together.
I had to take part of the story with a huge grain of salt, as I found it to be rather unbelievable, but then, I tend to be a bit jaded about certain things. There were times when I just wanted to shout 'Enough, Already!' but I kept on reading, and I have no regrets for doing so.
The characters are well-developed. You will either love them or hate them. The back and forth point of view between Zeta and Ryder will take you on an emotional journey. Have your tissues handy.
I received an Advance Readers Copy of this book. Your reading experience may or may not be the same as mine.
Thank you to the author, Siobhan Davis, for letting me read and review the book.